Chapter 47

The smile on Li Qingyao's lips slowly disappeared.

Someone said it.

In fact, at the beginning, someone asked her why she didn't smile.

At that time, she was already a junior, and she had never been close to the girls in her dormitory, and only maintained a superficial relationship. Later, one time, there was a roommate's birthday, and she still went. She originally planned to give a gift, eat a few bites and leave. But her roommates were actually pretty nice people with straightforward temperaments. They asked her to drink, and Li Qingyao was casual and perfunctory. Unknowingly, they were the first to get drunk, but she was still fine.

After drinking, they spoke the truth. They said, "Li Qingyao, we have been classmates for so long, why are you always so arrogant? Don't you care about anyone?"
Li Qingyao said calmly, I don’t, this is just my personality.

Three years, three years! I have never seen you smile. One of my roommates said, "What is your sorrow? Tell us. We are all police officers and we will help you."

Li Qingyao didn't answer, but drank another large cup, lowered his head to suppress the moisture in the corners of his eyes, then raised his head and said with a smile: "Thank you. Am I not smiling?"

"Tsk!" said another roommate, "Laughing is uglier than crying. But you should smile more in the future and don't show everything on your face, otherwise people will know your true colors right away. Didn't the teacher say that for us criminal investigators, the most important thing is to be thoughtful and steady!"

The next morning, Li Qingyao woke up drunk, looked at himself in the mirror, smiled, and smiled again.

She thought her roommate was right, she really didn't laugh much anymore.

It turns out that smiling is not an expression, but a skill.

Later, Li Qingyao smiled more and more. She seemed to have become a different person, acting properly, smiling brightly, and not showing it in her eyes. Several roommates saw her extreme transformation, looked at each other, and didn't know what to say.

On the eve of graduation, the head of the dormitory sent her a WeChat message:
[Sometimes, we need a very long life to be truly healed. Li Qingyao, don't be anxious, take your time. To be honest, although your smile is still very fake, people who are not familiar with you should not be able to tell. Protect yourself in the future, and look forward to seeing you laugh heartily soon. ]

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When she didn't say anything, Chen Pu knew that he was right. Looking at her drooping eyebrows, a trace of pity flashed through his heart, thinking about what he was going to say next.

But he still had to make it clear, not for anything else, but for her.

Chen Pu has always believed that a truly smart person should live clearly and consistently, and only when one is clear-headed can one be truly free.

If it were someone else, Chen Pu would naturally not say anything. But she was different.

He didn't know before and thought she was just naughty, hypocritical, and acting up - after all, he didn't know much about normal young girls.

But when he saw her awkwardness and loss of composure in front of Luo Huaizheng, and her cold and arrogant attitude in front of her high school classmates, he realized that that side was the real, living Li Qingyao.

Instead of the perfect mask she usually wears when sitting in the office, you can never see her true heart.

Chen Pu said, "Yes, you get along well with everyone in the second team, and you are very worldly-wise. You work very hard and are absolutely excellent in terms of performance. However, I can see that you are not sincere in your interactions with everyone, and you just "socialize" for the sake of "socializing". But have you realized that they are not office colleagues in the popular sense that you need to have a good relationship with. We are different from other industries. We are criminal police, soldiers, and comrades-in-arms. Comrades-in-arms means that in dangerous moments, we can trust each other with our backs. But do you dare to trust? You secretly went to Zhang Xiyu's house to check evidence without asking anyone for help; when arresting a wanted criminal, you chased him alone even though you knew there was an encirclement outside and he could not escape. It is precisely because you have never been sincere, revealed your true self, and interacted with everyone. So naturally you will not really trust anyone. Am I right?"

He picked up the barley tea, took another big sip, and said with his head down, "I actually don't like seeing you smile like that. I didn't like it from the first day when I saw you trying to please everyone on the team. You've made yourself a social role model. Aren't you tired? Li Qingyao? Are you really that kind of person?"

Li Qingyao sat upright, motionless, with no expression on her face. Her eyes were fixed on the buttons on Chen Pu's chest, and her eyes were slightly hot, but she held it back.

Chen Pu had been thinking about these words for days, so he just blurted them out: "When I said you should get along with everyone sincerely, I didn't mean you should pour out your heart and soul for no reason. I meant - be the kind of person you are. If you are unhappy, don't smile. Pay attention to whoever you want to pay attention to, and ignore whoever you don't want to pay attention to. Why did you take the initiative to ask Fang Kai about the school and use his connections? Why did you bring tea to please Yan Yong? Do you really like doing these things?

Everyone doesn't really care about these things. Look at Zhou Yangxin, he has a stubborn temper and is arrogant. He gets angry with everyone, but is that a problem? No one in the team thinks there is a problem. These brothers have been with me for so many years, and they are all smart. Except for Yan Yong, no one can fail to see your politeness and deliberateness. Everyone just doesn't say it. Everyone is just waiting for you to let down your guard and truly become a member of the second team. "

Li Qingyao still couldn't utter a word. He sat with his head down, like a silent and thin tree.

Chen Pu was silent for a few seconds. When he looked up at her again, his eyes were sharp and clear. "And to me. You obviously don't like me, so why do you always say ambiguous words, always provoke, and only tease me? Is it for fun, joking with me, or do you want to seek excitement and challenges? Have you ever thought about how you would end up if I, Chen Pu, was really a bastard who was tempted by beauty and fell for your trick?

"I really treat you as my own sister, but what do you think of me? Someone you can play with at will? Or someone you can just throw away after flirting with me?"

Li Qingyao's tears fell, he wiped them away quickly, stood up and said, "You are right, I am a hypocritical and selfish person. I flirted with you just for fun, nothing else, don't think too much, after all, it seems a bit difficult for you to have no girlfriend for so many years. Captain Chen, I will go home and reflect on myself now, you take your time to eat."

Chen Pu moved his lips, wanting to say something, but he didn't know what to say. He stared at her as she walked away, and had the urge to stand up and chase her several times, but he held back.

He said to himself, now is not the time to apologize, and he cannot apologize for this matter. This is a matter of principle, and he must let her think it through, which will be better for her in the long run.

Chen Pu immediately called the waiter to quickly settle the bill. He endured for about three minutes. When he saw Li Qingyao turning a corner in the alley ahead, he stood up quickly and followed him.

He followed her from a distance of about 100 meters, making sure she was in his sight, all the way to the downstairs of her house. Chen Pu stood sideways behind a big tree, watching her go upstairs, until he saw the lights in her house turn on. He stood there in silence for a while, then took out his phone with a cold face and sent a message:

[My words just now may be a bit harsh and inappropriate, I'm sorry. But please think about what I said carefully, honest advice is hard to hear, right? ]

no reply.

After a while, he typed: [Is your leg fully healed? Do you want me to carry you tomorrow?] He deleted it, paused for a while, and changed it to: [Is your leg fully healed? Do you want me to carry you tomorrow?]

Still no reply.

Chen Pu exhaled slowly, walked towards home, raised one arm, slapped the back of his head twice with his palm, sighed deeply, and went upstairs.

I slapped myself in the face just like Chen Pu, what's the point of updating one chapter a day and feeling relaxed.

I can't relax. I feel comfortable only when I write 4000 words a day.

However, when I accompany my children out to play during the summer vacation, I will definitely update one chapter a day or stop updating.