Chapter 171 You are my first love.

Pei Yu's pajamas were useless. Shen Zhiyi spilled hot cocoa all over her hands, making them sticky, so she had to go to the bathroom to wash her hands.

The light here was bright, reflecting her features very clearly. She had taken off her coat when she came in. Now she was wearing a long knitted skirt, which made her look very soft.

Pei Yu leaned against the door frame and looked at her, still feeling it was unreal. He had not thought that Shen Zhiyi would come, and was still thinking about how to finish things here quickly and go back to see her.

"Why are you looking at me?" Shen Zhiyi wiped his hands clean and saw him take off the dirty pajamas, shirtless, and deliberately joked, "Are you seducing me?"

Pei Yu had been thinking about her a lot these past few days. Now that he saw her standing in front of him, all his longing turned into tenderness, making his cold facial features reveal a subtle tenderness.

He opened his arms and hugged Shen Zhiyi into his arms, "Did you come here because you missed me?"

This was something he dared not think about.

In fact, both of them are very busy. He often travels to other provinces and countries, and Shen Zhiyi also travels around for filming and recording programs, and she would be gone for several days. Pei Yu often said that he missed her, but she seldom said similar words. Even if she did, it was probably to coax him.

"Yes," Shen Zhiyi was hugged very tightly by him, with her cheek pressed against his warm chest. She could hear his steady and strong heartbeat, and her wandering heart also settled down. "I miss you very much."

Pei Yu kissed the top of her head, with a clear smile in his eyes, as if he was very happy, "It's so rare, Miss Shen is not busy with work but comes to see me, aren't you afraid of delaying your work?"

"Who said seeing you isn't a serious matter?" Shen Zhiyi felt his kiss on the top of her head, and in return, she gently pressed against his chest, in return for which the arm around her waist tightened.

"It's a bit abnormal," Pei Yu looked down at her and felt that Shen Zhiyi was softer tonight than ever before. He could feel that this softness was a privilege given to him. Pei Yu naturally wanted it, but he was not sure if he had done anything to please her.

He smiled slightly and rubbed her cheek with his fingertips, "It's too good to be true."

It was a scene that only appeared in his dreams.

His lowered eyes were tender and soft, as if filled with endless affection. Shen Zhiyi felt her heart swell and her eyes were sore when he looked at her so intently.

She leaned on his shoulder, not letting him see her face, and said casually, "What's unreal? Isn't it natural for me to be nice to you?"

Pei Yu was pleased by her and curled his lips, "Sweet words."

He still did not give up asking her why she was so abnormal, and asked slowly, "Is there anything I can help you with?"

Shen Zhiyi seldom asks him for help. In fact, Pei Yu is very happy to be ordered around by her. He wants to be useful to her and wants more love and care from her.

"No," Shen Zhiyi rubbed her eyes on his shoulder and complained to him unhappily, "Do I have to have a reason to be nice to you?"

Pei Yu was shirtless, so he easily noticed the slight wetness on her shoulders. He frowned immediately, held her chin and asked Shen Zhiyi to look up. Sure enough, he saw her eyes filled with tears.

Although she tried hard to hold back her tears, her eyelashes were still wet.

Pei Yu no longer had the heart to joke with her. His brows were tightly knitted, and he wiped away the tears on her eyelashes with his fingertips. "Why are you crying?"

He frowned, as if blaming himself, "Did I say something wrong?"

"No," Shen Zhiyi was trying hard to hold back her emotions, but when he looked at her with worried eyes and felt his warm fingertips, she found it difficult to control her emotions. As soon as she opened her mouth, a tear fell on the back of Pei Yu's hand, scalding his fingertips.

"It's not because of you," Shen Zhiyi said, and then he refuted himself, "No, it's because of you."

Because he said nothing, because he was hiding something so important, and because he loved her far more than she could imagine.

"Okay," Pei Yu responded gently, "It's my fault." He was most afraid of her crying, even if it was fake. Whenever he saw her crying scenes, he would skip them. If he dreamed of her crying, it would definitely be a nightmare that would haunt him for days.

Seeing her crying at this moment, he could do nothing to comfort her, so he had to take all the blame on himself, kissed her gently, comforted her, and lowered his posture, hoping that she would pity Pei Yu and stop crying.

Shen Zhiyi knew that he was afraid of her crying, so after shedding a few tears, she tried hard to hold them back and slowly calmed her breathing while he held her in his arms.

"Pei Yu," she wiped the tears from her face herself, using a little too much force, leaving a red mark, and said in a tearful voice, "I love you."

She cried so hard that Pei Yu felt distressed, as if she had been wronged, as if she felt Pei Yu had treated her very badly, yet she still said she loved him.

"I know," he whispered, "I love you, too."

Shen Zhiyi looked at him, "You don't know."

"If you knew how much I loved you, you wouldn't lie to me and wouldn't hide the fact that we had met before."

Pei Yu was obviously frozen, having never thought that she would know this.

"You..." He wanted to ask Shen Zhiyi how she knew, but he felt that this question was not important at the moment. He was silent for a while, and then apologized, "I'm sorry."

"I don't want your apology," Shen Zhiyi hugged his neck. Her cheeks were hot because she had just cried, and she just leaned against him. "I should be the one to say sorry."

She blinked, shed another tear, and said sadly, "I'm sorry, I forgot about you."

She didn't know at the time that what she thought was a chance encounter would become the love of her life.

"It's okay," Pei Yu stroked her back gently, as if he didn't mind at all, "I didn't even show my face at that time, and I didn't do anything for you. It's normal that you don't remember."

"But it's unfair to you," Shen Zhiyi wiped away her tears, "You haven't forgotten me."

"Zhizhi," Pei Yu thought of something that happened a long time ago, and his eyes softened, "You attracted me very much back then. You were my first love. It would be strange if I forgot about you."

He never asked for fairness from Shen Zhiyi, he didn't even ask her to love him as much as he loved her.

He only asks to be the only one.

"Pei Yu," Shen Zhiyi thought of what he had heard from his father, "Don't keep blaming yourself for not taking me away. That's not your responsibility. Even for first love, no one is willing to give so much."

She was a real burden at the time.

Pei Yu was silent for a while. He would never be able to get over this matter for the rest of his life, because after he left, his Zhizhi indeed suffered a lot.

"I love you," he didn't say anything, Shen Zhiyi kept repeating, "I really love you."

What she loved was him after they met again, Pei Yu, who treated her well in many ways even though he did not take her away from the mountains.

Pei Yu smiled silently, "Okay, I believe it."

Even if he couldn't let it go, he would rarely dwell on that issue again.

What matters is the present moment.

I like this chapter hehehe~