Chapter 275 Why Do I Feel Guilty
She couldn't sleep and was in a state of mental tension every day.

Han Li said with a smile: "Let's talk about it tomorrow. As for tonight..."

"It's okay to drink a little. Just treat it as your last indulgence," said Han Li.

Xu Jinzhi was stunned for a moment, but finally nodded in agreement.

When Xu Jinzhi returned home, Tuantuan was taking care of Suisui like a little adult. Xu Jinzhi walked over and played with them.

That night, Xu Jinzhi didn't want to drink, but she couldn't sleep. Then she thought of Han Li's words. She was a doctor, and since she said it was okay to drink, then it should be okay.

So Xu Jinzhi couldn't help but drink, and got himself drunk, and naturally fell asleep.

In the quiet bedroom, Xu Jinzhi was like a madman, drinking and crying silently.

In fact, the bedroom was very soundproof, so even if she cried, no one outside could hear it, but Xu Jinzhi did not cry out loud.

It’s not like I’m afraid of being heard by others, but rather I’m afraid of being heard by myself.

Later, Xu Jinzhi herself didn't know when she fell asleep.

But after the night passed, when Xu Jinzhi woke up again, no matter how uncomfortable she felt, she would cheer up.

At the agreed time, Xu Jinzhi appeared in the same office as yesterday.

Although I still felt unfamiliar when I saw Han Li, he was a little different from when we first met yesterday.

Xu Jinzhi could feel it herself, and she thought, this might be the reason why Han Li didn't ask her too many questions yesterday.

Sitting down again, Xu Jinzhi and Han Li talked like ordinary friends, but because he knew Han Li's special situation, Xu Jinzhi revealed more to Han Li.

Everything went smoothly until Han Li asked Xu Jinzhi, "Why do you feel guilty?"

"What?" Xu Jinzhi looked at Han Li in a daze, as if he didn't understand what she was saying.

Han Li said again: "I can feel your sadness and pain, and I can also feel your guilt."

"You feel guilty about your husband's accident. I want to know why you feel guilty?"

Han Li is young, but she has her own extraordinary abilities, otherwise Assistant Chen would never have come to her.

So even though it was just the first formal conversation, Han Li still found the problem quickly in a short time.

There was a hint of surprise in Xu Jinzhi's eyes, but the other party just stared at her, leaving her nowhere to hide.

After a while, Xu Jinzhi said in a somewhat dazed voice: "Maybe it's because I feel that I don't love him enough."

She always wondered why she didn't treat Xie Yanchuan better, even better?
Han Li did not nod to agree with Xu Jinzhi, but just looked at her quietly.

She knew that Xu Jinzhi was not telling the truth, and when Xu Jinzhi looked at Han Li, he also knew clearly that Han Li did not believe him.

The conversation ended here. Han Li prescribed some medicine for Xu Jinzhi, but due to the special nature of these medicines, Han Li controlled the dosage very well.

We agreed to give it to her next time we meet.

Xu Jinzhi nodded in agreement, then left with the medicine.

On the way back, Xu Jinzhi was still thinking about the question Han Li had asked her before: why did she feel guilty?

Why does she feel guilty?
Xu Jinzhi gritted his teeth, of course it was because Xie Yanchuan died because of him!
But she couldn't tell this to anyone.

After Xie Yanchuan died in her previous life, she continued her life as if nothing had happened. Later, when she occasionally thought of Xie Yanchuan, she thought that Xie Yanchuan had a bad fate and died at a young age. But now she knows that Xie Yanchuan died because of her!
She actually ridiculously thought that Xie Yanchuan had a bad luck. If it weren't for her, how could Xie Yanchuan have a bad luck?

She is really ridiculous.

Xie Yanchuan is such a good person, he should live a long life.

It was she who made Xie Yanchuan suffer such a misfortune.

Xu Jinzhi gritted his teeth, trying hard not to let himself fall into such emotions.

That night, after Xu Jinzhi gave Xie Yanchuan a massage, he wiped his body and cleaned him up before returning to the bedroom.

After taking a shower and getting ready, Xu Jinzhi prepared to go to bed.

After walking a few steps, Xu Jinzhi remembered that he had not taken his medicine yet, so he went to take it first.

This was the first time Xu Jinzhi took such medicine. The effect of the medicine took effect quickly. Not long after lying in bed, Xu Jinzhi fell into a deep sleep.

But Xu Jinzhi slept very uneasily during this sleep.

She kept frowning and mumbling something, and she could not get out of the nightmare.

Xu Jinzhi remained in that state all night.

Until the end, Xu Jinzhi was haunted by a nightmare again. When he suddenly opened his eyes, he found that it was the alarm clock ringing.

Xu Jinzhi was breathing heavily and sweating profusely as if he had just finished running.

After staring blankly at the ceiling for a long while, Xu Jinzhi came back to her senses. She sighed heavily, then curled up on her side.

This sleep made Xu Jinzhi feel very tired, even worse than the headache she felt when she woke up from a hangover.

But Xu Jinzhi knew that this was a normal reaction, and Dr. Han had told her about it yesterday.

Not only that, Xu Jinzhi took other medicine after breakfast in the morning. She had never suffered from motion sickness before, but today she felt very dizzy.

After finally making it to the hospital, Xu Jinzhi couldn't help it and went straight to the toilet to vomit.

When Xu Jinzhi came out again, he stood in front of the sink and saw his disheveled self in the mirror at a glance.

At that moment, Xu Jinzhi was a little dazed. She felt that the person in the mirror was very strange and it was clearly not herself.

How could she be like this?

After staring for a while, Xu Jinzhi began to tidy herself up. After she was done, she let out a long sigh and left the bathroom.

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Since the beginning of May, the weather has started to get hotter and hotter, as if it was going to roast people.

Xie Yanchuan still didn't react at all and just lay there quietly.

Xu Jinzhi works normally. He goes to Qing'an Temple on the first and fifteenth day of every month, and meets Han Li every Monday afternoon.

In short, with all the messy things added up, Xu Jinzhi seemed a little busy.

No one knew if it was because of too much stress, fatigue, or a reaction to the medication, but Xu Jinzhi became even thinner, and looked sick and broken.

Compared with the beautiful and bright Xu Jinzhi a few months ago, she is completely different.

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